My family

Wow. You never know who your going to consider your family. I never once could ahve imagined my life to be this way and it all started form one game of football. I always been a tom boy so i like to do most things that guys like to do...playing football is ont he top of the list. So everyday that the guys in the development played football, me and Brooke were right there with them, ususally the only two girls out of twenty people playing. And believe me, we got treated and acted just like one of the guys.. no special treatment. Well one day two new people decided they wanted to play, Chris and Quan. Well they had no idea who anyone was or anything so we just acted like we knew them. Well we connected right away and before you knew it i was hanging out over at chris's house. This became my new home and my new family. So many new people been coming and going. It only started out as being me, Chris, Quan, Brianna, Kyle, and Devin. We were the best of friends. We did everything together, Than Dane and Cody came into the picture and me and Cody had an connection. We started to date a couple months later in decemeber and are still together now. Than more and more people started coming. Nate, Cody, Dannie, Kortney, Steven, Zach everyone. My family consist of, Momma, chris, Kyle, Brianna, Kortney, Nate, Quan, Devin, Dannie,. Keirra, Cody, Dane, Zach, Steven, Lauren, Cody, Sandy, Frag, Shawn and probably others that im forgetting. To me, family isnt just those who share a name or parents but ones taht can mke you laugh while your crying, or make you feel good about yourself when you dont. they are the ones that tell you you can when the rest tell you you cant. To me, these kids are my family. They are the ones love the most. Now on the pictire were missing, Momma, Cody, Dane, Chris, and Keirra. But these people are my family

Things are getting better

As of last week things in my life have started to get better. Rememeber how i wrote about me and Cody breaking up? Well we were broken up for about two to three weeks and i tried to hate him with everything i had. I said i hated him, didnt talk to him, talked bad about him, deleted pictures, and even set a really mean song as his ringtone. But than at Kyles surprise party i saw him for the first time since the break up and alot of feelings came back. So we talked alittle sunday, and monday he called and woke me up and we talked alittle more. But Tuesday is when the magic happened. He called me Tuesday night and asked me if i talked to his mom, which we are really close. I said no and he asked me to call him back when i got home so i did. I was kind of mean and than he asked me to come over and talk so i did. We talked for hours. He told me he missed me and so forth and finallhy on wednesday he aske me back out. I felt like a weight was lifyed. And than things just kept getting better and better. I dont know what it is but its happening. I have friends who are my family and family im meeting for the first time. I always knew i had another sister and brother and a neice and nephew. I just never ment them or talked to them until last weekend when my sister Torrey, decided to contact me and my other sister brittney. We talked and then met her and her daughter for the first time. It felt good knowing they care enought o find us and get to know us. Lets just say i ahve alot more to smile about now.

surprise party

so sunday was my best friends, kyles birthday. he was turing the big 18 and me and his mom decided to throw him a surprsie party, but she left everything up to me! let me tell ya thats the last time i ever do that they are so stressful! Kyle still goes to school, vo tech to be excat. And since i never went there i didnt know any of his friends from there. So to invite people i stole his phone and wrote down numbers and texted them telling them about it and i had one of his other friends telling people about it. Than some idioit told him about it and we had to play it off. I was so scared that it wouldnt have worked out but it did...really well to. alot of peopel came and he was surprise and shocked taht it happened. But, for my family when someone turns 18 they get all sex stuff for therer birthday so thats what i got Kyle. I brought hima whip, a candy thong, and candy boobs, oh and i made hhim two penis cakes. Well the one was smashed in my face and turned into a big cake battle. it was so fun. OS i than decided to take the whip and whip kyle with it, yea bad idea he beat the crap out of me with it. Than he held me while cody, my ex beat me so i got cody baack with it. But i guess i hit him harder than i thougth because he had a huge welt on his arm and i broke the whip. All together it turned out to be a really good party. it was def worth all the stress and everything that i went through to plan it. It shows that i care and well do anything for my best friend. Now lets see if he remembers mine, considering its only 16 days after his.

Feels like her world is crashing down

Ever since my car accident on February 11,2010 i feel like everything is just getting worst and worst. I dont have a car so i sit at home most of the times on my days off of work alone, adn do nothing. Or at least thats how it was until Friday when i reconnected with the past. I use to have a best firend named Brooke and we did everything together, and i mean everything(except shower), lat summer. I particually lived at her house with her. We went to the beach together, we went to knoebels together, we splet in the same bed together, got in trouble with the cops together, got tattoos together, (matching ones), and she even was the one that helped me get my job. It was like two peas in a pod until drama started with other friends and she got stuck in the middle and we stopped talking all winter and fall and just now started talking again. So now i hang out with her and Heather who i also stopped talking ot for a while. But anyway thats about the only good thing, now the rest is drama. Momma and her boyfriend broke up and drama started with that and somehow everyone comes to be to talk and than my words get twisted and i get stuck in the middle with the he said she said bullshit. I feel like i dont have my best friend Kyle anymore, and to top it all off me and Cody, who was the boyfriend broke. Which to be surprised i was upset at first until i took the phone back that i brought him and read the text to other girls. It was like Jerry Springer shit, lol. But we are still on talking terms and i gave him the stuff back that i brought except the cell phone and we talkd everyday since we broke up. So i dont know what to do anymore. Sometimes i just wanna curl up and lay around in bed all day long and do nothing and other times i feel like i want to go out and be rebelous agianst the world. HMMM THE SECOND CHOICE SOUNDS ALOT BETTER!! The picture is kyle my best friend